Two weeks ago I was talking to my friend Stacey Gee and I told her that if everything went well and according to plan that the name of my book would be Backing Off Cancer in 90 days!
Well .. I need another title. Carsten and I met with Dr Goy and after reviewing my latest PET/CT scans he suggested that I have 4 ( yes... FOUR!!!!) more cycles of chemo... There are many reasons for that and to many medical terms that I am not so familiar and would not have a clue on how to spell them for me to explain this better but in short is that the mass has continued to decrease but in a much slower pace and that radiation at first was an option but due to the fact that A) mass to close to heart and B) the cancer had originally already travelled to at least one more place ( pancreas) that the chemo might be the best treatment to really kill all that is left.
I learnt recently that in the CW ( cancer world) there are to many :mights, probably, most likely and very few: for sure, certain, etc. The truth is that they are learning as they go...
Needless to say I was very disappointed... maybe I was being over optimistic but I really thought the appointment was more like... a "wrapping up"... I was wrong... With Chemos come so much other shit ... like injections , fatigue , steroids, ... But I will not let this small bump in the road discourage me ... I may have to postpone a few things... my hair will take a little longer to grow... but I still see the finish line and a beautiful life after cancer.
much love to all