So... I have not been been travelling to Bali nor have I gone to full body liposuction to Brazil...
The truth is I have been very sick and had to stay in the hospital for close to a week. scary? overwhelming? depressing? All of the above but I came home yesterday and I have to start to get my positive outlook back as Dr. Goy told me I will undergo a few more chemos and at that time I will stay at the hospital for a week at that time so they can monitor how I feel.
Carsten and I call him "Ratatouille" .. he is great !!! So was everyone back at the hospital , a place I really had not visited since the beginning of this whole ordeal. The Cancer Center is operated as a very independent entity from the hospital, different nurses, different protocols.. much more like a Day Spa and the hospital is like a Destination Spa ( am i going crazy???? NO, just trying to find good lighthearted analogy's)
Although I am not proud of being sick , I am proud that I have mastered some lingo and can actually give some meaningful advise /suggestions to my care team. I Know what nepogen is and the names of many other drugs and I know what they do and the effect that they have on my body...and that is empowering... in some level... I am not so clueless anymore.
Leonardo thought I "was working" and when I came home he said: No working so long Mommy!!!! with tears in my eyes I hugged him tight and forgot a lot of the pain....
I will keep everyone updated and thanks for all the well wishes..
PS: Xanda: Valeu! Talvez era essa a vez que voce tinha que ter vindo comigo... eu sei que deve ter sido horrivel me ver daquele jeito mas eu senti tanta forca com voce e Gracas a Deus voce nao esqueceu a sua bolsa!!!! Vamos pra Bali?????
PS: I will go to Bali once and MAYBE do a whole body liposuction too.... big kiss xoxoxoxox